People ask me what are my credentials that I know happiness and success can be assured. Well, for a good part of my life, I was emotionally negative, which resulted in my being very unhappy. I have a very good formal education, including an MBA degree, and I expected to be very successful, but I was, in my own opinion, a failure. In my youth, I was emotionally and sexually abused and I grew-up to become an angry, abusive adult. My first marriage and relationships were failures and I was far from successful in the corporate world. All I could envision was a future that would continue to spiral downward. I finally reached that point of ‘dissatisfaction to action’. I was determined to do whatever was necessary to turn my life around.
I began my journey by attending psychotherapy sessions. My therapist used Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) in my treatment. It’s important to know that I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) that was brought about by my Obsessive, Compulsive Personality Disorder (OCPD). It was my obsession to change that enabled me to learn how to ’be the observer’ of my thoughts and emotions and start my journey toward happiness and success. My therapist suggested that I see her once a month. Being obsessive, I told her “If once a month is good, then I’ll see you twice a month”. After a few months of therapy, I didn’t feel any better so, being obsessive, I started reading self-help books in addition to going to therapy. After many more months of continued unhappiness, I was getting desperate for change, and I thought “Maybe God’s the answer”, and I started studying all the major religions. (For a succinct summary of the major religious principals, see Oneness – Great Principals Shared By All Religions by Jeffrey Moses). Then one day, it all came together. I realized it was all in my way of thinking! I was negatively interpreting everything that was happening around me. I understood I had conditioned myself to be negative by my negative thinking. ( See Understanding Neuroplasticity ) Being OCPD, I was obsessing on negative thoughts, and that was causing my unhappiness and failures. That’s when I started my new obsessive journey to understand ‘emotional conditioning’. (See Condition Your Emotions To Be Positive )